Once again I have fallen off of the "blog wagon"!! When I went to the Dr. last Wednesday they said that only one of the 4 eggs I had grew. However it only grew to a 15 and needed to be at an 18. He sent me home and told me if I didn't ovulate by Friday morning to come back in for another ultrasound. So, back I went Friday morning at 7a.m. When he did the ultrasound he couldn't find the egg. He told me that he thought I may have released it which means I may have actually ovulated. However, it could also be that it was a bad egg and it deflated. Leave it to me to have bad eggs, right???? He said it is possible that maybe JP and I could conceive naturally but the chance is very slim! He told me that if I didn't start my period in 15 days to take a test. When I start we will then start another round of Clomid. He said this time I will be on 300mgs. When I asked what the highest dose of Clomid was that he would put me on he said, "This is it. The next step is the injectibles and at that point you really need to think about doing in vetro since you will be spending all that money. IVF will give you a higher success rate." So, keep us in your prayers that it will work this next round cause I can guarantee you we can't afford IVF!!!

Update

Went to the doctor on Friday. They said that I have two eggs on each side but they are small. They gave me another 5 days of Clomid and I go back Wednesday morning. Hopefully I will be ready then!

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I don't even know how to begin today. I gotta admit, I'm a little nervous. Tomorrow is the big day where the doctor does the ultrasound to see if the Clomid worked or not. I'm so excited!! I really can't wait, but in the same respect I'm really nervous! What if it didn't work? Or what if the medicine works but the next step doesn't? There are so many questions, why can't this just be easy?? People get pregnant everyday and aren't even trying. Yet I have to jump through rings of fire and there is no guarantee even then! I'm sorry, I don't mean to rant. I think the hormones are taking over! ;-) I'll be sure to try and post tomorrow. Keep us in your prayers!!

The New Do!!!

I can't believe that I forgot to tell you, I finally got my hair done!!!! It was well past time for an update!!! So, here ya go!!!

Day 8

So today is the 8th day of my "cycle". I finished taking the Clomid this morning. I had to take it for 5 days total. I'm definitely feeling some cramping but they say that is a good sign. Guess my ovaries are doing what they are supposed to for once!! I go in for my ultrasound Friday morning to check them out. They will look to make sure that I actually did "make" some eggs, make sure they look ok, and make sure I don't have to many~! I will let you know more as I find out!!! Thanks for all your prayers!

And so it begins.......

Alright ya'll, consider yourself warned!!! Today is the lucky day that I started the Clomid. Now, some of you may not fully understand what this means. So I decided that I would fill you in. For the next week or two I get to be a leunatic. Clomid effects everyone differently, but considering I've been on it twice before, I think I can give you a pretty good picture of what it does to me. Imagine yourself standing in your classroom, it's 20 degrees outside, and you feel like you're on fire. Yep, that's right, HOT FLASHES!!! I never fully understood why older women always felt the need to announce the fact that they were sweating profusely. Until it happened to me that is! I kid you not, I thought I was melting!!!



As if that weren't fabulous enough, in walk the mood swings. That actually started this evening. Talking to the hubby on the way home. You know, the usual stuff. What time will you be home, what do you want for dinner, blah, blah, blah, love you bye. Now why at this point to I start to get weepy, and I'm literally turning onto the street of our neighborhood. ARE YOU KIDDING ME???? It's only the first day and all he said was goodbye!!! Please pray for him!!! He may have a breakdown by the end of all this!



Now what most of you probably don't know is that I suffer from Adult ADD. Believe it or not I just heard all the "Ah hah's" So you can imagine the rest of this, right? Frantically running through my day not remembering what I'm supposed to be doing! More to come on this I'm sure. And by the way, I started this blog last week and I'm just now finishing it! Need I say more? It's already time for an update!!!